Tuesday, October 06, 2009

Some days I have EVERYTHING under control
and then some days I feel like this...
As an artist running a business I feel as though I am often teetering on an edge of potential unreliability. I live in a relatively small but constant state of fear that my left brain will not always show up for work on time to get done what needs to be done when it needs to be done. Most days its there early—planning, thinking and responding to emails and phone calls with such a fervour of dedication that you wouldn't even think to question that it would EVER be negligent or absent. And then, well...right brain takes over and convinces lefty that it would be just fine for it to take that long bubble bath or that plane to Prague—we will be able to hold down the fort perfectly fine without it.
Then all hell breaks loose...painting, writing, drawing, no sleep, and a constant feeling that there are things everywhere being forgotten or left undone, all of it totally beyond my control. I would love to know how to handle this better than the constant scrambling I do...any suggestions?

5 comments:

Tad Barney said...

Those who dream by day are cognizant of many things which escape those who dream only by night. ~Edgar Allan Poe~

Caricature Girl said...

Thanks Tad...I needed that.

cabap said...

hahahahahaha...my dear friend,
who is who ??????? (lol)
jan ;);)

bassetbabies said...

I suffer the opposite unfortunately, and once every few weeks lament over how I've gone another week without creative outlet. I am home and baby is asleep this hour. I could have been dusting cobwebs from the ceiling (a thick layer by the fan), or finishing up an overdue client letter, or cooking a craving of pork and beans in the crock pot, or putting thoughts down on my blog. My mind wanders instead over giving up my law career for a bakery and I turn to facebook quizes which tells me only that the career for me is as a lawyer. Sometimes we just get caught in vicious circles. The only remedy is time and a lot of thinking.

Caricature Girl said...

Jan, the elephant is my creativity :)

Hey Mandy,
At the end when you wrote "the only remedy is a lot of time and a lot of thinking"...i thought at first it said "drinking" and my first response was "Hey THATS what I do!" :)